CONGRATULATIONS REGGIE!!

IM SO PROUD OF YOU BABY!

I GOT A CHANCE TO HEAR YOU PLAY AND SEE YOU IN ACTION LAST NIGHT! WOW! I WAS COMPLETELY BLOWN AWAY. YOU ARE A PHENOMENAL DRUMMER AND IT WAS A PLEASURE TO WATCH YOU. 

THE CD IS HOT!! I'LL EVEN GIVE IT TO THAT ONE LIL SONG THAT HAS YET TO GROW ON ME...SMH "LORD YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU, AND IM DOING THE BEST I CAN"...(TO LOVE THIS SONG...LOL J/K, IT'S COOL)..I CANT GET ENOUGH OF MY FAVORITE.. "WALK WITH ME"...OMGNESS!! THEN TO HEAR IT LIVE WITH THE "EXTRAS" YALL PUT ON IT....SMH

I WISH YOU CONTINUED SUCCESS. I KNOW GOD HAS GREAT THINGS IN STORE FOR YOU!

*THANK YOU FOR THAT SPECIAL MENTION, I STILL GET OVERWHELMED WHEN I THINK ABOUT OR READ IT....LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!

ANYONE READING THIS, CHECK OUT THIS CD! YOU WONT BE DISAPPOINTED!!

http://www.myspace.com/svmuzick 

SHOCKED.....

SO MANY THOUGHTS GOIN THRU MY HEAD, MY MIND IS RACIN
THE LAST TIME WE TALKED, THE THINGS YOU SAID, THERE'S NO ERASIN
THE PAIN IN MY HEART, THE WAY YOU MADE ME FEEL. I DONT KNOW
WHAT TO DO MAYBE I SHOULD WALK AWAY, I WANNA STAY.
HOW CAN I LOVE YOU, WHEN YOU LET ME DOWN? YOU WALKED AWAY
BUT I WANT YOU AROUND.

SO MANY THOUGHTS GOIN THRU MY HEAD, IT'S YOU I MISS
WE WERE SO COOL, HOW DID IT GET TO THIS?
I'M TIRED OF CRYIN MYSELF TO SLEEP, OVER A LOVE I COULDNT KEEP
WE CANT GO BACK TO JUST BEIN COOL, THIS THING GOT WAY TOO DEEP
IT HURTS SO MUCH TO WATCH YOU WALK AWAY, ALL I WANTED WAS
FOR YOU TO STAY.

I PULLED MY WALLS DOWN JUST FOR YOU, WHY COULDNT YOU MAKE ME
THAT IMPORTANT TO YOU TOO? I BELIEVED IN YOU ENOUGH TO GIVE
YOU MY HEART, YOU DIDNT THINK ENOUGH OF ME TO DO YOUR PART.
NOW YOU WANT ME TO TAKE THE BACK SEAT SO YOU CAN PLAY,
MY LOVE'S TOO REAL BABY, IT CANT WORK THAT WAY.

SO MANY THOUGHTS GOIN THRU MY HEAD, MY MIND IS RACIN
FEELIN SO ASHAMED OF SOME THINGS I BEEN CONTEMPLATIN
THAT ONE THING I'LL ALWAYS HIDE, NEVER TELL, JUST LET
THAT THOUGHT RIDE.

YOU SAY YOU'RE GETTIN RID OF NEGATIVE THINGS, THE WAY YOU
TALK, I FEEL LIKE THAT INCLUDES ME.
IT WOULD MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER IF I WALKED AWAY FROM YOU
THAT'S SOMETHING I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO....

SO MANY THOUGHTS RUNNIN THRU MY HEAD, SO AFFECTED BY THINGS
YOU SAID. CANT STOP THE FEELINGS I HAVE FOR YOU. SO HURT BY
SOME THINGS YOU DO.
I'LL TRY TO STEAR CLEAR, ERASE MYSELF FROM YOUR LIFE
TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR YOU, YOU WONT SEE MY CRY.

NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD EVER NOT CARE
WHETHER OR NOT I WAS THERE.
COULDNT MAKE ME BELIEVE A TIME WOULD EVER BE FOUND
WHEN MY LOVE, MY BEST FRIEND WOULD BE GONE WHEN I TURN AROUND.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POOFACE.....

OK, SO IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY. ON ONE HAND IM SAD THAT IT'S NOT BEING SPENT THE WAY I THOUGHT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN....I ALWAYS PICTURED US TOGETHER. BUT, ON THE OTHER HAND....I ENJOYED THE NIGHT WITH YOU. IT MADE ME FEEL GOOD TO BE THE FIRST TO WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN PERSON. YOU KNOW IM A KID LIKE THAT...LOL IT WAS GOOD TO LAUGH AND TALK AND UM PLAY WITH YOU AGAIN. THE WAY WE USED TO. BEFORE THINGS GOT ALL MESSED UP.

I CAN SEE ME FEELIN LIKE THIS IF......

P.S. (I'M STILL NOT OVER YOU) RIHANNA

Whassup? I know we haven't spoken for a while I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile So many things to say and I'll put them in a letter Thought it might be easier, the words might come out better How's your mother? How's your little brother? Does he still look just like you? So many things I wanna know the answers to

Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on there's a lot of feelings that remains since you?ve been gone I guess you thought that I would've it all behind me but it seems there's always something right there to remind me like a silly joke or something on the TV, boy it ain't easy when I hear our song I get that same old feeling

Wish I could press rewind, turn back the hands of time and I shouldn't be telling you Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you (you, still not over you)

Did you know I've kept all of your pictures Don't have the strength to part with them yet Oooh nooo.. tried to erase The way your kisses taste But some things a girl can never forget Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you Still not over you, see I've tried to forget you Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you (fade)

MUSIC DRIVES MY FEELINGS.....

ALTHOUGH YOU'VE SEEN ME CRY MORE THAN I CARE TO ADMIT.......



RIHANNA..........CRY



This time was different Felt like I was just a victim And it cut me like a knife When you walked out of my life Now I'm in this condition And I've got all the symptoms Of a girl with a broken heart But no matter what you'll never see my cry



Did it happen when we first kissed Cause it's hurting me to let it go Maybe cause we spent so much time And I know that it's no more I should have never let you hold me baby Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart I didn't give it to you on purpose Gotta figure out how you stole my heart My mind is gone I'm spinning 'round And deep inside My tears all drown I'm losing grip What's happening? I stray from love This is how I feel...



This time was different Felt like I was just a victim And it cut me like a knife When you walked out of my life Now I'm in this condition And I've got all the symptoms Of a girl with a broken heart But no matter what you'll never see my cry

How did I get here with you I'll never know Never meant to let it get so personal And after all I tried to do To stay away from loving you I'm broken hearted I can't let you know I won't let it show You won't see me cry

This time was different Felt like I was just a victim And it cut me like a knife When you walked out of my life Now I'm in this condition And I've got all the symptoms Of a girl with a broken heart But no matter what you'll never see my cry.....On my life

I HATE THIS

MY FRUSTRATION CONTINUES....SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO WALK AWAY COMPLETELY....ACT LIKE HE NEVER EXISTED. MY HEART WONT LET ME DO THAT. THERE IS SOMETHING IN ME SO SURE ABOUT HIM, THAT I FEEL LIKE WALKING AWAY AND WRITING HIM OFF FOR GOOD WOULD BE ONE OF THE BIGGEST MISTAKES I'VE MADE.

BUT LIKE THE SONG SAYS "HOW DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE, THAT HURT YOU OH SO BAD?" PEOPLE TELL ME YOU CANT HELP WHO YOU LOVE OR FALL IN LOVE WITH, BUT SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD. I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST 2 PEOPLE.... A FRIEND AND SOMEONE I LOVE.

HE THINKS WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO JUST GO BACK TO LAUGHING AND JOKING THE WAY WE USED TO. SOMETHING ISNT THE SAME. OUR FRIENDSHIP HAS BEEN ALTERED. MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN EASIER TO STICK WITH WHAT WE STARTED OUT AS. THE HARD PART IS THAT WE DIDNT. IT MAKES SENSE TO ME THAT OUR "FRIENDSHIP" WILL NEVER BE THE WAY IT WAS.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY FRIEND AND HE BROKE MY HEART. WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS ALL GOOD. IM EXPECTED TO ACCEPT AND HAVE NO FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING. OF COURSE I KNOW YOU CANT MAKE SOMEONE DO OR BE SOMETHING THEY DONT WANT TO DO OR BE. IT'S NOT ABOUT THAT. I GUESS THE HURT I FEEL IS JUST TOO STRONG....

I TRY TO BE NONCHALANT ABOUT HIM AND THINGS PERTAINING TO HIM, BUT SOMETHING ELSE HAPPENS AND MY HEART IS RIGHT BACK ON MY SLEEVE. I WANT TO BE LIKE HIM....DONT SHOW EMOTIONS, FEELINGS, AND JUST GO ALONG LIKE BUSINESS AS USUAL. BUT IM NOT A CYBORG. I HAVE FEELINGS. I SHOW EMOTION. I GUESS THATS THE PROBLEM.....I HAVE FEELINGS....FOR HIM......AND IT SUCKS......I DONT KNOW HOW TO TURN THEM OFF FOR MY OWN PEACE OF MIND......I WISH I COULD JUST STOP AND START AGAIN IN ANOTHER TIME OR ANOTHER PLACE WHEN NONE OF THIS EVER EXISTED.

I READ SOMETHING THE OTHER DAY, ON MYSPACE OF ALL PLACES, THAT SAID "LOSING YOU IS NOT THE HARD PART. THE HARD PART IS KNOWING I ONCE HAD YOU" I AGREE WITH THE SECOND HALF....FOR ME LOSING HIM IS THE PROBLEM. ESPECIALLY THE REASONS WHY........

MY MIND-LESS RAMBLING....

THE THING IS, IM MAD AT YOU....REALLY PISSED OFF. MY HEAD DOESNT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU COULD TREAT ME THAT WAY. NEVER MIND MY HEART. LET'S START WITH SOMETHING SIMPLE, CAUSE MY HEART IS COMPLICATED. AS SIMPLE AS IT MAY SOUND TO YOU, I JUST DONT SEE HOW YOU COMPLETELY JUST SAY, AFTER EVERYTHING, "F*CK YOUR FEELINGS AND YOU, IT'S ALL ABOUT ME." I KNOW THOSE WERE NOT YOUR WORDS, BUT YOUR ACTIONS, WELL YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT ACTIONS....I GUESS IT'S HARD FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO YOU. EXCEPT LOVE YOU. SO HOW DO YOU CHOOSE TO ACT LIKE THAT TOWARDS A PERSON THAT LOVES YOU? I KNOW IT SEEMS TRIVIAL TO YOU. YOU LIKE TO SAY IM EMOTIONAL AND MAYBE I AM. OK NO MAYBE. I REALLY AM, IT'S PART OF ME. JUST LIKE THERE ARE THINGS THAT ARE PART OF YOU. ANYWAY, BEFORE YOU SAY IT, YEAH I KNOW, WHO KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN? OK FINE, THE THING IS, IT DID HAPPEN....BUT NOW YOU WANNA MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IT ONLY HAPPENED IN MY HEAD. LIKE I WAS GOING ON ABOUT THIS ON MY OWN. LOL, HOW I WISH I COULD GO INTO DETAIL HERE, BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WHO MIGHT READ THIS....AND THINGS HAVE A FUNNY WAY ABOUT "GETTING AROUND THE NET." BESIDES, IM NOT ONE TO PUT MY BUSINESS OUT IN THE STREET COMPLETELY.

BEFORE THIS TURNS INTO WHAT MAY SEEM LIKE A "HATE CAMPAIGN" (HATE IS TOO STRONG A WORD, BUT USED JUST FOR "SLOGANS SAKE") IM GONNA SAY THIS: NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE ELSE TELLS YOU, ON THE UPSIDE, I THINK YOU'RE A HELLUVA MAN. THAT'S NO JOKE. I ADMIRE THE GENERAL LOVE YOU HAVE FOR THE LORD, PEOPLE, LIFE..ETC. THE WAY YOU ARE WITH AND ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN IS BEAUTIFUL. EVEN IN THE TIMES WHEN IT SEEMS LIKE THINGS ARE NOT COMING TOGETHER, I KNOW WHERE YOUR HEART IS. I ADMIRE YOUR WANT TO BE AND DO BETTER WHERE THEY ARE CONCERNED. BUT SADLY ENOUGH, THIS IS NOT ABOUT ANYTHING I MENTIONED ABOVE. YOU HAVE THAT, FOR ME, HANDS DOWN.

ON THE DOWNSIDE, YES THERE IS ONE, I THINK YOU HAVE A HELLUVA LOT OF NERVE. PLAYING WITH PEOPLE LIKE THAT. WELL TO HELL WITH PEOPLE, CAUSE IM NOT INTERESTED IN HOW YOU TREAT THEM....THIS YOU ALREADY KNOW. YOU HAVE NERVE TREATING ME LIKE THAT. I HAVE ALWAYS TOLD YOU THAT MY FEELINGS AND MY HEART ARE TWO THINGS THAT I DONT PLAY WITH. I GAVE YOU MY HEART AND SHARED MY FEELINGS AND YOU LET ME DOWN....BIG TIME. AND THE REASON(S), I CANT EVEN TOUCH THEM. YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL. THEN TO WATCH YOU NOW AFTER ALL YOU SAID TO ME....AND YOU WONDER WHY I FEEL THE WAY I DO? ARE YOU SERIOUS? JUST PLEASE SIT BACK AND LOOK AT IT FROM MY STANDPOINT ONE DAY. TRY THAT FOR ME, AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU SEE.

WOW AT THE THINGS YOU SAY TO ME NOW TOO. YOU HURT ME MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. IN SOME WAYS MORE THAN THE FIRST. HOW'S THAT POSSIBLE? I CAME OUT OF MY SHELL FOR YOU. AFTER TRUSTING NOBODY FOR YEARS, I TRUSTED YOU. LETTING DOWN A WALL OF PROTECTION, THAT TOOK ME 10 YEARS TO CONSRTUCT, AND YOU PULLED IT DOWN. THEY SAY "The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist"....NOPE, LOL THAT WASNT THE GREATEST TRICK.

OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT PUTTING EVERYTHING IN HERE, SO THIS WONT MAKE MUCH SENSE TO ANYONE BUT YOU AND I. IF YOU EVER EVEN SEE/READ THIS. BUT YOU GOT ME DUDE....AFTER ALL WE'VE BEEN THRU, AND IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE MUCH TO SOME, BUT THEY DONT KNOW...BUT AFTER ALL THAT TO COME TO THIS? YEAH YOU GOT ME....BUT I WANTED TO BE, AND THATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND PEOPLE IN MY PAST. I LET MYSELF BE OPEN TO GET. I EVEN FEEL ASHAMED OF MYSELF FOR BELIEVING IN LOVE. THE FUCKED PART ABOUT IS THAT PART OF ME STILL BELIEVES IN IT, IN YOU....IN US....GUESS I ALWAYS WILL.....SHORTCAKE.

MISSIN YOU

IM SITTIN HERE ALONE DRINKIN
THIS BICARDI 151 GOT ME THINKIN
BOUT HOW U USED TO DIP UR
FACE IN MY PUSSY FOR A DRINK AND
MAKE THEM SLURPIN SOUNDS
WITH UR TONGUE SO FAT AND ROUND
LIPS SEXY AND FULL AS U NIBBLE AND
PULL ON MY CLIT JUST A BIT
ENOUGH TO MAKE ME "MMMMMOAN"
WITH PLEASURE WHEN YOU SLIDE YOUR
FINGERS IN MY TREASURE, CHEST RISIN
AND FALLIN CAUSE DADDY'S GOT ME
CUMMIN AND GOIN OUT OF MY MIND
EACH AND EVERYTIME HE FINDS MY
SPOT, I GET SO HOT WHEN I REMINISCE
ON THE WAY YOU USED TO KISS MY
VERTICAL SMILE. HOLDIN BACK SO
YOU'D STAY DOWNTOWN FOR A WHILE.
I'M REMEMBERIN YOUR HOLD ON
MY HIPS AS I WIGGLE AND AND TRY TO SLIP
FROM YOUR GRIP. NOTHING LIKE THE FEEL
OF YOUR HANDS ON MY SKIN AS YOU
TONGUE WRESTLE MY KITTY AND YOU ALWAYS
WIN. CAUSE I LIKE THE OUTCUM OF UR JOB
WELL DONE. THE WAY MY JUICES FLOW
LET'S YOU KNOW, THAT YOU'VE COMPLETELY
ROCKED MY WORLD...YEAH YOU SLAYED THIS BIG GIRL.
TOOK ME OUT OF MY GAME, DAYUM IM CALLIN YOUR NAME
LEAVIN ME SHAKIN AND SHIVERIN, BODY QUIVERIN.
TOTALLY SPENT IN THE AFTERMATH OF YOUR VISCIOUS
TONGUE BATH...... DAYUM, I'M MISSIN YOU....(NBFMLYD)

TRUST....YEAH RIGHT

HOW DO YOU LEARN TO TRUST PEOPLE WHEN ALMOST EVERYONE AROUND YOU SEEMS TO BE FULL OF SHIT? THE PAST FEW MONTHS HAVE BEEN TRULY DISAPPOINTING TO ME. WHAT HAPPENED WHEN PEOPLE YOU CALLED YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY KNEW HOW TO REALLY ACCEPT THOSE POSITIONS AND LIVE UP TO THOSE STANDARDS? IF I TELL YOU SOMETHING, I DONT EXPECT TO GET IT BACK FROM A THIRD PERSON. IF YOU TELL ME SOMETHING IS ONE WAY, I DONT EXPECT TO FIND OUT YOU'RE TELLING PEOPLE SOMETHING ALL TOGETHER DIFFERENT.

IS IT TOO FUCKIN MUCH TO ASK TO BE TREATED HOW YOU TREAT PEOPLE NOWADYS? I MEAN IS IT REALLY THAT HARD TO HAVE SOME DAYUM COUTH AND RESPECT ANOTHER PERSONS FEELINGS?

SOME OF YOU MF'S MAKE ME SICK....GRINNING IN MY FACE....OR BETTER YET "PISSIN IN MY FACE AND TRYING TO TELL ME ITS RAINING....COMMENT IF YOU WANT TO, I DONT REALLY GIVE A DAYUM................YALL GONNA MAKE THE REAL ME COME OUT YET....THAT EVIL BITCH IS SHAKIN THE CELLAR DOOR I KEEP HER LOCKED AWAY BEHIND....TSUNAMI'S START BENEATH A CALM SEA..REMEMBER THAT

CODE BLUE....

I TRIED TO STOP WHAT WAS HAPPENING.
MAKE ALL THESE FEELINGS GO AWAY.
CANT TAKE THE WAY I REACTED,
BUT I WANTED YOU TO STAY.
I WAS AFRAID OF WHAT I FELT
CAUSE IT STARTED THIS WAY BEFORE
I GAVE MY ALL TO SOMETHING REAL
IN THE END I VOWED TO LOVE NO MORE
I WANTED TO STOP MYSELF FROM FALLING
LETTING GO FOR EVEN JUST A TRIAL.
I WAS SO MUCH SAFER
WHEN MY FOUNDATION WAS DENIAL.........................

PHOTOGRAPH........

I WANT TO PHOTOGRAPH YOU. EVERY MOVE. BENDIN, STRETCHIN, WHATEVER YOU DO. FROM THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD TO THE SOLES OF YOUR FEET. PAYING CLOSE ATTENTION TO ALL SPOTS IN BETWEEN. CAUSE IF I'M HONEST, I'LL INCLUDE, THAT AT TIMES THOSE ARE THE SPOTS I'M MOST ATTRACTED TO.

DON'T MISUNDERSTAND ME, I LOVE THE FACT THAT YOU'RE INTELLIGENT. BUT THERE ARE THESE TIMES WHEN THAT'S TRULY IRRELEVANT. LIKE WHEN YOU EMERGE FRESH FROM A SHOWER. YOUR BEAUTIFUL BROWN SKIN EXUDING NOTHING BUT POWER. DROPS OF WATER LINGER ON THE TIPS OF YOUR FINGERS JUST LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO QUENCH A THIRST THAT'S BEEN BUILDING UP INSIDE OF ME. BUT I HAVE TO CONTROL THIS WAVE OF ECSTASY THAT SWELLS SO DEEP IN ME SO I CAN GET MY PHOTOGRAPH OF YOU. DOING WHAT YOU DO TO INTOXICATE AND ENTICE ME SO NICELY AS YOU PLEASE, DON'T STOP. I WANNA PHOTOGRAPH YOU SITTING, LAYING, WHATEVER YOU DO. ON YOUR BACK IF YOU WILL. MIND IF I SIT ON THIS SPACE? I WANT A CLOSE UP OF YOUR FACE. YOUR EYES, YOUR LIPS...UM GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY HIPS. THIS IS NOT THAT KIND OF TRIP....YET. BUT BET, THE LONGER I PHOTOGRAPH YOU LYING DOWN IN THE NUDE DOING THE THINGS YOU DO WHILE I SIT ATOP THIS SPACE LOOKING DOWN AT YOUR FACE, I'LL FINALLY COME AROUND AND IT'LL BE TIME TO PUT THIS CAMERA DOWN.....................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY....I MISS AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

TODAY IS MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY. I CAN USUALLY GO THROUGH FATHERS DAY, HIS BIRTHDAY, THE DAY HE PASSED AND THE DAY OF HIS SERVICE AS IF THEY DONT EXIST. IT HELPS ME TO FORGET ABOUT THOSE DAYS. THIS DAY WAS SO DIFFERENT. THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE GOING ON IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW THAT IM INDIRECTLY A PART OF AND IT MADE ME THINK OF MY DADDY. LITTLE GIRLS NEED THEIR DADDYS!

R.I.P R.R.C JR